did my pal’s makeup for prom last night
he’s never done drag before as far as i know, and my heart is overcome with joy
sometimes i just start feeling too much so i draw really happy princess bubblegums
you came to me with your oversized sweater sleeves pulled over your hands
just whispered your legs were so full of poetry, you had to move to your arms
i said, “i’ll buy you a notebook”
upon dinner you told me your stomach was so full of words you’d swallowed
you couldn’t eat for a week
well i remember when i would swallow my hunger like pills
praying to the sky and the dirt and the sea for an overdose
i remember when all i ate was “i love you”s
i remember when i ran out of lines on my skin to write on
yet still i prayed for a smaller canvas
i remember when the only thing i would do on my knees was pray
see, i’ve been praying all my life to a god i’m not sure i believe in and who i’m sure doesn’t believe in me
but i have studied the difference between self-reflection and self-destruction like my religion
and i have been trying to stay faithful
so, tonight, i will leave you with a prayer
dear god, please, please, please, let me be original
as though everything wasn’t a copy of a copy of a copy, including this line
god or not knows i don’t want to be alone
but more than anything i don’t want you looking into yourself like a nike sweatshop
like the raindrop that started the hurricane
like this year’s selection of republican election candidates i mean fuck you’re no rick santorum
i pray and pray and pray
but no god i can find in textbooks will listen
for now, i will stick to signing each of my letters with “YOU ARE NOT ALONE”
and drawing it from your breath like a mended hallelujah
-rachel adams (ohgrrrl)
(Source: ohgrrrl)
(this is the poem i wrote for the thing at school and it’s probably not very good but my friend wants to see it)
hold me like you held your breath that moment before jumping
tell me you’re afraid to fall
i’ll tell you, “let me teach you to be afraid to fly
after all, if everything that goes up must come down
why go up at all?”
maybe it’s just because i’m shorter than most
but i’ve been priding myself on the space between me and the sky
and on the lack of space between you and me